Interesting and well-written article about writer Simon Gray’s struggle with writing a play about Charles Dickens:
Simon Gray thought writing a play about Charles Dickens would be a breeze. Only now, after wrestling with it for years, can he bring himself to recall the full agony of its creation …
I can’t write when I’m afraid to write. When I force myself I become self-conscious, which is worse than not writing, as it makes me feel ashamed, and bogus. On the other hand, not writing makes me feel stolen from – but by whom or what? Time, perhaps. I decided to give up on the play for a while, get stuck into something else.
Stuck into what? My sense of failure with Dickens lapped into whatever I was writing, as if I were doomed to keep on repeating the experience, though in increasingly minor keys as my projects became increasingly less ambitious: attempts to convert my old stage plays into television films, for instance. Or my old television films into stage plays.
Link to the Guardian Unlimited article